I'm taking a break from doing my "personality" test for a job application.
I'm too tired to think.
Turk got called into work for an hour and a half cause his employee had to pick up his mom.
So I'm sitting in our room looking from this computer screen to those papers and waiting for Turk to come back home.
I'm done Theo's book (which was AWESOME by the way) and now I'm onto Marty Brodeur's book. I've missed reading, if that's possible. :P I'm also done knitting my brown hat and going to be starting an orange one. As with the painting... I've started on a 2 projects one has a base coat and the other I need to buy tracing paper before I slap paint onto the canvas.
I have the next few days off and I'm planning to do some more reading and knitting. I need a vacation so bad. Need to center myself again. I'm slipping away and it just keeps going.
Oh and I have an interview with Rob from Black's Photography tomorrow. :) So wish me good luck that I get the job and higher pay! lol
You came with a history
You came with a place hardly ideal to be living in
You came with no money
You came with an ex wife
You came with four children
That was your package
I came with uncertainty
I came with emotional fatigue
I came with angered opinions
I came with adolescence
I came with attachments
That was my package
We accepted each other anyways
We have learned from our past
Working out the lessons learned
We bring out the best in each other
And kick the other in the butt when needed
We are building a future, everyone included
We are a blended family
But a family none the less
A family that will never quit on each other
A family that loves one another
A family forever
I'm just taking a break from cleaning. I haven't done TONS but I've started at least. Cleaned out the fridge, did as much as I could in our bedroom (our closet rod collapsed so we have clothes EVERYWHERE), and now starting to clean the "office". I can't seem to create or focus when our house is messy. I've said before that I've wanted to put my studio downstairs, well I'm thinking either I go downstairs and the cat leaves or I figure out something else. The litter box doesn't get cleaned up regularly so it has "that smell" when you go down there. Hmmmmmm....
I was also listening to She & Him before and now I'm trying to find artists that are similar to that style I'm liking more and more as I listen. I used to listen to hardcore (still love it) but I don't as much now.
Ok I better get back to cleaning. See ya later!
I'm typing this from my boyfriend's computer in the hall as he's laying in bed. I'm out here because I'm trying to let him sleep, but what with all my hacking, coughing, and me blowing my nose, I highly doubt he's getting any rest. I've been stuffed up for about a week now and it's not really getting any better.
I have today and tomorrow off so Turk and I are going to the city today and tomorrow I'm thinking it will be just a stay at home day. I would love to get this place cleaned up, but alas sicky me will be too drained to do anything productive.
Been thinking of starting to do yoga before bed. I would do it in the morning but I despise waking up earlier than I have too.
Also really wanting to paint and knit again. (Have 2 painting projects in mind) It hasn't been long since I've done either but I need to make a bigger space for myself to do these projects in. I have started on cleaning up the downstairs to do this, but we still have too much stuff down there. Need to sell a few things.
Some things I need to work on:
Appreciating the things I have and the people around me more often
Thinking positively
Creating more
Getting myself out there
Bringing my life to a new level of health, love, happiness, and spirit
I don't need to be finding a "new" me, just an improved me, making my already good self better, bringing myself up to my full potential.
I may be one of the only ones who reads my boyfriends blog but he's not alone. :P Like he said, "Well I've come to realize that I really only write this for me. " Which is pretty much what it comes down to no matter who you are. You have to do things for yourself, not just to please others (hence why I only update this blog when I want to).
He and I both share a huge passion to want to "be somebody" and change the world by helping others. I think, sometimes we think that we have to "be somebody" by ourselves, when really we need people who love and care for us, as we do them, to help us get there. Once again, as Turk has wrote "Sam often struggles with not being who she wants to be and although I think she's wonderful at who she is, I know she wants to be that girl sitting in her studio, with paint from head to toe and a smile on her face. I hope she realizes that she needs to hold on to that dream, just as I hold on to my dreams of becoming the person I want to be. The one that helps, and gives back, or gives of themselves....I want to be that person and I believe it will come in time for me and for her."
So... what about if Turk and I joined forces instead of trying to do things ourselves... I could help raise money with art/gallery showings/etc. (as I've wrote before I would love to open an art gallery that gives back) and Turk could help with getting us out there and help others. The motor to this project. Kinda of like... starting our own non-profit organization. There are SO many of them out there, I don't know where we would start. I like the idea of focusing on multiple causes rather than just one, but is that tangible? We could join forces with organizations like TWLOHA, Livestrong, etc. I may be getting way over my head here but this really gets me excited.
I know that you are not supposed to work along side family or friends because, business is business, but what if there are just 2 people who both really just want to do something good for others (and just happen to be practically married lol). Maybe that bond, that love will actually HELP in a situation like this. I can't believe that I never thought of this before.
Okay I'm gonna let this wallow in my head for a bit while I go make supper and do laundry. Have a great night!
By the way Turk, you have no idea how much I love you and how incredibly happy you make me. Hearing Jen and you (when talking to Slappy) refer to me as "Mom", my heart almost bursts out of my chest with gratitude. Even just the little things like when talking on the phone and you say "Our daughter is getting a haircut", I just smile from ear to ear knowing that we are a FAMILY. We are the greatest family I know. I'm so lucky to know and to love you, the kids, Slapshot, and also know that I am loved back. It is so amazing that it really can't be described in just words. :)
