I wanna be someone that you look up to. I wanna be there for you whenever you need me. I wanna be a role model for you. I want us to talk and laugh. I want us to do activities together, just you and I. I want there to be silence but the silence where no words need to be said because we know what the other person is thinking.
I know I'm not perfect and I know that I need to work on this, but I'm still new to it, so please give me some time. I may screw up and I may hide but that doesn't mean I'm actually ignoring you.
If it seems I'm not putting any effort into this it's because I have a hard time thinking of something to do or say out of thin air. And now because of that I'm scared that I'm gonna be replaced. (I know I actually won't but the thought still sits in the back of my head.)
I love you and adore your quirkiness. You're beautiful inside and out. I couldn't have asked to have a better step daughter. I love bragging about you and your accomplishments and what a great kid you are. I'm glad that we will always be in each other's lives cause I couldn't go on without you. You accepted me into your life and I only hope that we can grow stronger together from now on.
I still remember the post you wrote about me and it still brings me to tears. I really miss you calling me "mom" and getting random hugs. I just hope you still feel the same way.
~ With love: Sam ~
