Today Jen and I went grocery shopping, had Starbucks, and went to East Side Marios for supper. Jen and I received free drinks and free desserts, PLUS balloon masterpieces. Tee hee! I requested a Christmas tree and Jen told the guy to surprise her and she received a balloon present. Today was a pretty sweet day. :) I wish I had more time in a day. I need to put some more gifts into stockings and then do some painting. I have to go to work tomorrow and I'm really not wanting to. It's gonna be crazy this week with last minute holiday shoppers. :( Please be nice people.
I'm gonna go to bed with my thoughts.
Maybe I'll post something interesting tomorrow...
But I can't. I have so many things running through my head I'm surprised my head hasn't flown off yet. I've been thinking/dreaming a lot lately, like a lot. Mostly about art, quotes I've read, career path, home, etc. Last night my eyes were so tired from staring at the laptop screen all day, but once I went to sleep my mind kept racing about all the inspiration I had just seen. Made me want to paint in the middle of the night. Kinda makes me want to now too. My friend Dan wrote something that is very true to the core of what my thinking revolves around. "So don’t be yourself, be who you want yourself to be." It may sound easy but it's the hardest thing I think I've ever faced....
A beautiful Starbucks thermos. I <3 it!
I'm: In love <3
I'm smelling: Cookies right out of the oven
I'm reading: Wedding D.I.Y. ideas
I'm listening to: Grammy nominations on tv
And...
now I'm going to go eat some cookies!
I wanna be someone that you look up to. I wanna be there for you whenever you need me. I wanna be a role model for you. I want us to talk and laugh. I want us to do activities together, just you and I. I want there to be silence but the silence where no words need to be said because we know what the other person is thinking.
I know I'm not perfect and I know that I need to work on this, but I'm still new to it, so please give me some time. I may screw up and I may hide but that doesn't mean I'm actually ignoring you.
If it seems I'm not putting any effort into this it's because I have a hard time thinking of something to do or say out of thin air. And now because of that I'm scared that I'm gonna be replaced. (I know I actually won't but the thought still sits in the back of my head.)
I love you and adore your quirkiness. You're beautiful inside and out. I couldn't have asked to have a better step daughter. I love bragging about you and your accomplishments and what a great kid you are. I'm glad that we will always be in each other's lives cause I couldn't go on without you. You accepted me into your life and I only hope that we can grow stronger together from now on.
I still remember the post you wrote about me and it still brings me to tears. I really miss you calling me "mom" and getting random hugs. I just hope you still feel the same way.
~ With love: Sam ~
My boyfriend and Theo Fleury.
Similar? lol Turk usually has the little soul patch too. I think it's a better resemblance in real than these photos.
