I'm just taking a break from cleaning. I haven't done TONS but I've started at least. Cleaned out the fridge, did as much as I could in our bedroom (our closet rod collapsed so we have clothes EVERYWHERE), and now starting to clean the "office". I can't seem to create or focus when our house is messy. I've said before that I've wanted to put my studio downstairs, well I'm thinking either I go downstairs and the cat leaves or I figure out something else. The litter box doesn't get cleaned up regularly so it has "that smell" when you go down there. Hmmmmmm....
I was also listening to She & Him before and now I'm trying to find artists that are similar to that style I'm liking more and more as I listen. I used to listen to hardcore (still love it) but I don't as much now.
Ok I better get back to cleaning. See ya later!
I'm typing this from my boyfriend's computer in the hall as he's laying in bed. I'm out here because I'm trying to let him sleep, but what with all my hacking, coughing, and me blowing my nose, I highly doubt he's getting any rest. I've been stuffed up for about a week now and it's not really getting any better.
I have today and tomorrow off so Turk and I are going to the city today and tomorrow I'm thinking it will be just a stay at home day. I would love to get this place cleaned up, but alas sicky me will be too drained to do anything productive.
Been thinking of starting to do yoga before bed. I would do it in the morning but I despise waking up earlier than I have too.
Also really wanting to paint and knit again. (Have 2 painting projects in mind) It hasn't been long since I've done either but I need to make a bigger space for myself to do these projects in. I have started on cleaning up the downstairs to do this, but we still have too much stuff down there. Need to sell a few things.
Some things I need to work on:
Appreciating the things I have and the people around me more often
Thinking positively
Creating more
Getting myself out there
Bringing my life to a new level of health, love, happiness, and spirit
I don't need to be finding a "new" me, just an improved me, making my already good self better, bringing myself up to my full potential.
I may be one of the only ones who reads my boyfriends blog but he's not alone. :P Like he said, "Well I've come to realize that I really only write this for me. " Which is pretty much what it comes down to no matter who you are. You have to do things for yourself, not just to please others (hence why I only update this blog when I want to).
He and I both share a huge passion to want to "be somebody" and change the world by helping others. I think, sometimes we think that we have to "be somebody" by ourselves, when really we need people who love and care for us, as we do them, to help us get there. Once again, as Turk has wrote "Sam often struggles with not being who she wants to be and although I think she's wonderful at who she is, I know she wants to be that girl sitting in her studio, with paint from head to toe and a smile on her face. I hope she realizes that she needs to hold on to that dream, just as I hold on to my dreams of becoming the person I want to be. The one that helps, and gives back, or gives of themselves....I want to be that person and I believe it will come in time for me and for her."
So... what about if Turk and I joined forces instead of trying to do things ourselves... I could help raise money with art/gallery showings/etc. (as I've wrote before I would love to open an art gallery that gives back) and Turk could help with getting us out there and help others. The motor to this project. Kinda of like... starting our own non-profit organization. There are SO many of them out there, I don't know where we would start. I like the idea of focusing on multiple causes rather than just one, but is that tangible? We could join forces with organizations like TWLOHA, Livestrong, etc. I may be getting way over my head here but this really gets me excited.
I know that you are not supposed to work along side family or friends because, business is business, but what if there are just 2 people who both really just want to do something good for others (and just happen to be practically married lol). Maybe that bond, that love will actually HELP in a situation like this. I can't believe that I never thought of this before.
Okay I'm gonna let this wallow in my head for a bit while I go make supper and do laundry. Have a great night!
By the way Turk, you have no idea how much I love you and how incredibly happy you make me. Hearing Jen and you (when talking to Slappy) refer to me as "Mom", my heart almost bursts out of my chest with gratitude. Even just the little things like when talking on the phone and you say "Our daughter is getting a haircut", I just smile from ear to ear knowing that we are a FAMILY. We are the greatest family I know. I'm so lucky to know and to love you, the kids, Slapshot, and also know that I am loved back. It is so amazing that it really can't be described in just words. :)
My new dress and shoes/boots that I'm wearing to a friend's wedding this weekend. :)
So I've decided on the name for my business/project is "Break Free Artistically". I have a blogger, tumbler, fbook page, etsy, and twitter account for exposure. Thing is I suck at updating (as you can tell from my bad attempt to keep this one going). I've done one painting and now knitting my 8th hat (grey one that I might wear with the above outfit) but that's it. I have pastels both oil and soft, half done paint by number, a sketchbook, watercolors and colored pencils that are still waiting to be used. I wish I could just spend forever surrounded by art and supplies. Like a gallery, a craft store, SOMETHING that will always keep me inspired. I've even reorganized my desk to hopefully stir up something. Sure my job gets me shooting a little bit but it's just not enough. I look into taking some art classes but then I see the price and feel it may be better for me to just keep going on my own for a little more. If this a good or bad thing I'm unsure.
I'd love to open up a gallery like "MOCHA: The Museum of Children's Art" but have it for children and adults. Have a place where people can create and then another spot to show off all kinds of work. Maybe even have gallery shows related to a charity, have the subject be related to let's say, Breast Cancer and then have a percentage of the money from donations, etc go towards The Breast Cancer Association. Maybe even go in a direction of doing art therapy (think I need it more than teach it lol). I have no idea where to even start to get on one of these paths....
I've been thinking about names for when I want to start up my own business or whatever. Been thinking about having something to do with the words 'fox', 'creations', 'painted', 'creative'.... My boyfriend has come up with some other names as well, there is one that I'm really liking, but I'll sleep on it and see if anything else pops up. How do people come up with their business names? I'm open to even doing a play on words kind of name too, I like when people are clever.
This is what my step daughter, Jennifer wrote on her blog. I cry every time I read it.
"So, last night I was lying in my bed, thinking about Sam & Dad getting married. (Which I cannot wait for) After the divorce my dad swore he was NEVER getting married. The day Sam walked into our house, I knew. I knew they would be together forever, I knew that he would love her forever and I just knew that no matter what my dad said, he would get married to her. She walked into our house and I was sitting in a chair, all she said was “Hey Jen, is your dad downstairs?” I nodded and she walked down stairs. I had no clue who she was, but the way she walked in, and the smile on her face and the way she said what she did, I just knew that they would be together forever. I still to this day, remember what she was wearing when she walked into our house. I loved Sam quickly, she wasn’t like an evil stepmom, she was a cool older sister to me. We went shopping and went to baseball games and listened to music and took pictures and did everything you would do with an older sister; as we became closer she also became my cool mom. I think of her as my mom, as well as an older sister, and as a best friend. Everytime I see a Fox or an Owl I think of Sam, everytime I see a person with gorgeous red hair, I think of Sam, everyday when I wake up in the morning I wonder how Sam is doing at work, and when she gets home from work, I have to give her a hug, because I miss her during the day. She is one of the biggest parts of my life, I am glad I will always have her.
i love you."
Today is my sister's magical birthday (turning 6 on Aug 6th). So I'm not gonna sit on here too long but just wanted to tell you everything is going well so far. Visited quite a few people yesterday. Stupid me never got any pics with them, but I plan on taking pics of my sis's bday. Talk to you later!
BTW I'm leaving tomorrow to go back to Saskatoon. Thank gosh! I need to get back home.
